Half step down

Intro

can't find the forest

too stuck on the trees

but now you're invested,

  so i'm left pretending

  it's all i can see

i asked for a window

to open my cell

you came as kaleidoscopes

  climbing, colliding

  you came as yourself

whether i'm ready

  is not up to me

  we go where we're ordered

  to bunker or beach

to the close of creation

  as shells and stories

a spiral staircase

Astoria, Queens

i claimed you while conscious

  got sleepy, forgetful,

  and left you in dreams

you folded your leg

  right foot to left knee

  you laughed at my back

  said you couldn't believe

  how violent I could be

just brushing my teeth

(this part is hard to figure out

give me feedback if you can)

drove from the service

spent in my seat

my woman beside me

  a clutch of hydrangeas

  a strange sort of peace

in loss, i'm made certain

unveiled clarity

it's you i will marry

  my lover, my family

  you always will be

but every word

  seemed too small to speak

  so we watched the sky reach

  ambivalent peaks

we made our projections

present and free